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Oct 2018
11:41am, 3 Oct 2018
12,033 posts
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FRU (KeepTheFaith)
I think it's part of the menopause for me... after that "incident" with the scales I'm firmly banning myself from them
I was swimming away this morning and had a bit of a moment - I looked at the other ladies coming in and I thought "Ok - what do you think of her" and I was thinking well I would feel good about myself if I looked like her, why, she's got nice toned legs, she's got a womanly beautiful body, she looks like a really nice lady and she looks like she is proud of herself for swimming here... anyhow - that's a few women in a bunch and so I thought Ok what do they think of you then?! LOL!
There is a band I am absolutely crazy about at the moment called Idles.. not for everyone but the lyrcis have really had an impact on me - loads of them and one goes "If they talked to you the way you talked to you I'd put their teeth through.. love yourself" and although that's an extreme reaction man it's right!
Yup - 3 pints in on my water today - Go me! I am on it
YEY
And northern next year it's an ultra half for us me dear!
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Oct 2018
10:27pm, 4 Oct 2018
6,340 posts
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kwala
Hi everyone. Been lurking but decided to pop in for a little offload if you don't mind. I started my new job just over a month ago. No stress, sensible hours, nice friendly team and as a bonus it helps pay the bills!!!
But around the same time as I started the job, there was an incident at my running club. Nothing major, but someone said something that upset me (I may have over-reacted slightly - so up and down with hormones atm!!), and I haven't been back since as I don't really feel they can offer me anything at the moment. I'm sure if I spoke to someone they would address it but I don't feel like going back just yet.
It's frustrating as club runs always felt like a "safe space" and I have few enough of those. I can feel myself retreating inwards as I did when my anxiety was at it's peak - avoiding going out so as to avoid anything that could trigger me. I'm often feeling on the verge of tears for no apparent reason. I even blew out parkrun volunteering last week and that is also one of my totally safe spaces where even when my anxiety was at it's worst I felt ok.
I feel enormous and bloated and so unfit as I've not run for weeks now and been eating anything and everything in sight. I need to turn things around so I'm starting with a trio of "cans" to kick things off.
First can is that I've got myself back on the volunteer roster for my local parkrun on Saturday.
Second can - I'm off out with hubby and friends to see a band tomo - slightly freaking out about this but sure I'll be fine once I'm out - it's often the getting out the front door that is the most stressful part.
Third can - I'm joining a local gym - well, I'm going to have a looksee at the weekend and then they do a free 7 day trial. And then if I like it, they have a program that includes PT sessions and nutrition help and advice which looks promising.
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Oct 2018
10:36pm, 4 Oct 2018
14,095 posts
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MissChappo
Sorry to hear that Kwala. Really impressive that you have a plan - that shows you know how to deal with the situation. I have intermittent bouts of anxiety and I think we learn to work round it although it doesn't make it feel any better when it is happening.
Funnily enough I'm doing a new job with nice people and paying the bills but it is long hours at the moment and quite alot of stress. I've had several anxious mornings which I've had to talk myself round to deal with.
I hope you manage to get back to running club when you're ready. Definitely go for parkrun 
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Oct 2018
10:49pm, 4 Oct 2018
6,341 posts
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kwala
Thanks MissC - I had CBT a couple of years back and have the tools to help me through the anxiety, doing stuff that makes me feel good is high on the list - so parkrun, exercise etc are ideal coping mechanisms for me. Just need to get back in the habit of doing it all regularly.
Hope your work settles down soon, it's not good when you have to battle through anxiety before your day has even started properly xx
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Oct 2018
11:14pm, 4 Oct 2018
7,275 posts
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Mandymoo
Hi Kwala and those cans all seem a good start.
I too stopped going to running club a couple of years ago over a comment but have rejoined now and am plucking up courage to go back.
Am gradually getting back out running 2nd run of the week tonight for me.
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Oct 2018
10:57am, 5 Oct 2018
8,426 posts
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SarahWoo
Well done for making a plan, Kwala. Let us know how you get on xx
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Oct 2018
11:09am, 5 Oct 2018
5,646 posts
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sallykate
Oh kwala, I'm sorry to hear those woes - but you're doing brilliantly at picking yourself up and having specific and positive things planned.
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Oct 2018
11:52am, 5 Oct 2018
6,342 posts
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kwala
Thanks guys.
MM - glad you're finding your way back 😀 I know I'm being a bit 'cutting off my nose to spite my face' about it but I just can't face it right now - hopefully sooner than 2 years!
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Oct 2018
12:03pm, 5 Oct 2018
3,570 posts
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Lemon10
Have a one armed hug))) Kwala (I have a broken left elbow). Good to see you making some plans and working your way through it - and at your own pace which I feel is important. I seem to have developed some anxiety issues, not sure when it started but I often feel anxious at work now and like you I am trying to use techniques to overcome. It is mainly down to my new job, it is busier and more stressful than I imagined, and I always feel a bit overwhelmed by the work they want me to do. That being said they are nice people and they recognise and appreciate the work I do. Even so, I spend my free time trying to work out how I can leave!
Obviously no running at the moment for me with a bad arm but I hope to be able to start up again soon, it should heal up in a few weeks. I am managing to eat better, I have also taken some sick days off work to rest properly, I did go back for a day but realised I needed rest as I can't sleep too well and was overtired at work, so had the rest of this week off.
Keep on canning everyone, it's very motivating hearing everyone's positive actions!
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Oct 2018
9:46pm, 5 Oct 2018
14,098 posts
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MissChappo
Picked up my knitting needles again to try and complete my Fetch bobble hat
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