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Jan 2022
5:26pm, 23 Jan 2022
267 posts
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Benny Turbo
I can see how writing could be therapeutic, Hanneke.
I don't do enough of it.
I get the sense of a poem in my head but I've written it off as rubbish before I even put pen to paper, so don't start writing, or I just can't find the words.
Frustratingly, I sometimes dream I'm writing or reading something but can't remember it when I wake up.
I think getting involved with the local community is good for mental health and wellbeing, Fields.
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Jan 2022
6:25pm, 23 Jan 2022
84,763 posts
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Hanneke
Fields, so glad I inspired you to get out 
Since I can no longer run, walking has been my saviour. Walking mindfully doubles as meditation, clearing the mind and the body of stress at the same time. When low, I struggle to do sitting meditation. The mind starts spiralling and racing and rather than emptying it, I fill it. Not always a bad thing mind, but not the purpose... While a good walk always delivers.
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Jan 2022
8:02pm, 23 Jan 2022
2,140 posts
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Fields
That’s so true. I don’t know if I was doing walking meditation, but I certainly enjoyed clearing my mind and enjoying my surroundings.
The phrase “being one with nature” sometimes feels a bit contrived, but I know what they’re getting at.
I’m sorry to hear you can no longer run - but at least you do have other ways to get the same experience. And you’ve recognised what they are I can relate to this at the moment. I hope I’ll be able to run again at some point.
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Jan 2022
8:43am, 24 Jan 2022
36,656 posts
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halfpint
Morning folks. How is everyone this morning?
Slightly less anxious start today but still quite flat and unmotivated.
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Jan 2022
9:07am, 24 Jan 2022
41,138 posts
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HappyG(rrr)
Glad anxiety has reduced a bit hp. Your adventure trips and recordings about biking and kayaking on the FE podcast were fab. If you get a chance to listen back to them, you might inspire yourself. You certainly impressed me!
TT, give us a shout and let us know how you are? Feeling as low as you describe, does sound closer to the symptoms of depression. I know some folk are wary of medication, but if you get the right anti depressants they can be very effective with virtually no side effects. Doesn't fix everything, but lets you get back to an even keel and allows you to function and progress. My son has been on ADs for a number of years, and once he found the right dose and the one that worked for him, he is back to his normal self, which is so wonderful, after seeing him so down. And he has a 3 year old, so he *has* to be able to function!
Take care everyone, hope today is a good day. G
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Jan 2022
9:28am, 24 Jan 2022
84,787 posts
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Hanneke
Morning all.
Extremely gloomy here and unmotivated to go to my Monday client. I cannot go into it too much, but just before Christmas, this previously favourite client turned to me. It is his mental health, not me. I tried forgiving him for the hurt he caused but he did it twice more since.
I could not drag myself out to work for him last week. Normally, he emails or calls when I do that, which is unusual for me. Nothing. It bothers me greatly and causes anxiety and stress. To the point that this morning, my heart aches. I discussed it with friends and I was going to suggest to him we take a break from me gardening there. Problem is, I cannot afford to not go there.
I really cannot face another confrontation...
So do I bolster myself and quietly go there, hoping he doesn't come out to have a go? Issue is I am cleaning the greenhouse, so need two buckets of warm water from him, one with soap...
SIGH!
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Jan 2022
9:45am, 24 Jan 2022
8,920 posts
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The Terminator
Morning HG et al.
I'm here. A better night's sleep. About 5 hours broken and out of bed by 9. I'm functioning as much as I need to but then there are no pressures right now as focus is purely on recovery so I constantly argue with myself that I'm imagining all my symptoms and am depressed about my current situation rather than suffering depression. There is a difference right? But then I'm getting more of what, for me, I would call dark thoughts, not suicidal but disappearing forever leaving everything and that it would be better for everyone, the thought of the kids stop the thoughts pretty abruptly though. I'm definitely suffering mild, at least, anxiety and panic attacks. The anxiety has been there a few years, pretty much constantly, but I was using CBD to help and don't wish to anymore.
This week I am picking up my first ever glasses and have an ultrasound first thing Wednesday to follow up on abnormal liver blood test results. Apart from lung issues I'm concerned about a fleeting pain I'm getting in chest, quite likely anxiety based, but am aware that they said clots are putting some backward pressure on heart so wondering if I should contact doctor about that too and use the opportunity to chase up therapy referral and, just maybe, actually enter a medication discussion too. I'm more than a little scared of anymore scans, doctors and hospitals as last 4 weeks they have been nothing but bad news yet they did basically save my life too. Before the last 4 months I hadn't had an eye test since school, dentist appointment this century or bar my knee cartilage seen a doctor in over 10 years. Half phobia, half excellent self care so is another battle picking up the phone.
I have shared today which I'm happy about. I will certainly get a little walking in Hanneke, along with some other mindful activities. I'd love to get on bike too but doctor has said categorically that cycling is too much until I can walk comfortably lung wise.
Thanks for listening. Love to you all for another week x
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Jan 2022
10:25am, 24 Jan 2022
8,921 posts
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The Terminator
Just sort of digesting and taking in other posts sorry.
Hanneke. I hope whatever you decided today it works out positively. Love to you and your client who clearly is struggling themselves.
Hp hope days goes well and you manage to get something done. I'm strangely motivated to do anything bar what I need to do.
BT no poem is rubbish, you own them. Get them down for yourself. I wrote one every day for a year after I split from my wife. I've shared very few but they definitely helped therapeutically
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Jan 2022
10:43am, 24 Jan 2022
8,922 posts
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The Terminator
Posted that before I had finished it...
....and gave me focus. I still write two or three a week. I have one in my brain right now actually.
Field's I'm so glad you feel it but would argue long and hard that the saying 'at one with nature' is at all contrived. I think not feeling at one with nature, we are nature, is at the root of the worlds problems. We have lost connection, we are one with nature and any harm we do to nature ultimately harms us and vice versa. People don't appreciate material things anymore, no appreciation for the journey of the food on their plate, the bricks that built their house, the cotton that made their duvet cover, the materials that built their tv's and other gadgets..... If we could get that back then just maybe we would all start living a little more within our means and stop being so driven by wants and spending money we haven't got. I ask myself three questions before buying. Do I need this, will it make my life better and is it beneficial for the planet. If the answer to any is no I will not buy it. Not having a pop at you honest it is just my one burning passion. One that had a big part in sending me to this point so am trying to manage it, and the fact that I can't change the world on my own a little better, but is, I feel, my purpose in life. It should be everyone's if we care about our descendants futures and mother earth's gifts, and they are gifts. Gifts that have been monetised unfortunately.
I'll stop now
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Jan 2022
11:22am, 24 Jan 2022
2,158 posts
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Fields
That’s a really thought-provoking post there Terminator. I agree with a lot of what you say. You’re of a similar mindset to my brother in many ways I think.
Perhaps I should have said “it’s a bit of a cliche” instead. Whatever the choice of words, I’ve never regretted getting outside into nature. During the first days of the pandemic, I was starved of human contact and - on my brothers advice - hugged a tree in the woods when out for a walk - and it definitely helped
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